As I mentioned recently I am intending to take part in this year’s NaNoWriMo which is something I had been meaning to do for a few years, but always lost interest even before it started. Only time will tell if I will complete it this year or even start, but I’m looking forward to some other people from Twitter and other sites taking part as well; I suppose that provides a little bit more of an incentive for me to do it. But, motivation isn’t all that’s needed..
When I signed up to the site the other week I decided that I would create a separate blog for NaNoWriMo and publish what I write online straight away plus wordpress.com makes it very easy to do. As I set up the blog I also created an ‘About’ page listing things I had written or contributed to in the past:
- Started creative writing with short stories aged 10.
- Won a yearwide competition year 7 out of 130 entries with my short story based on a mystery surrounding an old chapel.
- Carried on writing a novel, completed roughly 20,000 words, but never completed it.
- Was part of the school newspaper for four years.
- Attempted writing another novel aged 17/18. Completed about 150,000 words until losing interest.
- Three years experience as news and feature writer for several gaming websites.
- Two years as the sole writer of two gaming related columns.
- On and off blogger since 2004; as of 2006 on my personal blog carocat.co.uk.
Now that all sounds quite good, doesn’t it?
Well, it may sound good, but it’s not so much. When I was younger and still living in Germany, I wrote a lot and everything from letters to short stories and more. And of course that was all in German. My one year in the UK when I was 16 didn’t stop me either and I carried on just like before when I returned. Ever since coming back to the UK, however, I’ve been unable to do any kind of creative writing. My German is beyond rubbish these days and my English just not good enough.
I have the same imagination, but I can’t put any of it into words in either language and instead of gaining another language to a very high standard I’ve lost what counts in both. Sure, my English is good, my spoken English is excellent and I haven’t got much of an accent, or so I’m told! I can write news, simple blogposts, communicate with people and have a better written English than some English people.
But there’s always something that I don’t know or need to look up; Leo Dict is one of my most visited sites. Words today included verbose, implacable and plicate which some may argue are uncommon words, but nevertheless I would have known them in German many years ago. Or grammar, simple things like punctuation or rather lack thereof compared to the German laws in punctuation!
As for German, I am unable to carry on the simplest conversations these days; typing not only takes me an eternity, but speaking is even worse. After a few weeks in Germany I am able to hold a conversation, but can’t do sarcasm for example.
Two languages, neither of them perfect, neither of them able to put my imagination into words. NaNoWriMo will be fun..