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Looking at my blog over the last few months and it’s evident that I’ve not been updating it quite as much as I should have and that bugs me. I know that I’ll regret it months down the line when I’ll try and figure out what I’ve been up to, but at the same time I feel that there’s so much going on that I barely have time to breathe.

Not having the internet at home is starting to actually change the way I live which is interesting. I still have the urge to google everything I can think of and have actually started writing lists for things to look up when I’m next online which means I’m much more focussed. At the same time I’m no longer a slave to my emails and am perfectly happy with checking them just a couple of times a day versus feeling the need to keep up with them at all times. I’m also more focussed with my RSS feeds and read a lot more of them these days though some are still only skimread.

The biggest difference perhaps has been Twitter. I haven’t tweeted since the beginning of the month though I’m still keeping up with a small group of people, DMs, replies and the local news which is a massive difference to before where I’d have long conversations on Twitter. My Twitter break is purely personal, I still love the site just as much as before, but with some of the things going on in my life at the moment, I don’t think I can trust myself, my ability to censor my own tweets and I have in the past regretted sharing too much with people I don’t really know. So whilst I enjoy the time I have away from Twitter I also miss the interactions.

My social interactions have gone way down recently due to the lack of social networking sites and particularly Twitter. Which, again, isn’t actually all that bad. In the past months I’ve realised that I didn’t enjoy many of the social situations I’ve found myself in which was either related to the company I was with, the location or the occasion. Analysing that closer I decided to cut out on a lot of things and instead focus on new ventures which made me realise that I really do want to stay in Reading and make things work here, unlike what I’ve mentioned in a previous post pondering moving away from here. But it sort of goes to show

Knitting is still a major part and I’m quite excited at some of the projects I’ve recently finished and some that I’m planning now. I’ve also acquired two bags of various wool from a friend’s wool stash which got me more than a little bit excited! I’m possibly planning my first children’s jumper and maybe even a cardigan for me, as well as a hat or two and some scarves and wristwarmers for other people. Turns out that wearing knitted items means people want them, too. Who knew?

Generally I’m finding myself still very stressed. There’s a lot going wrong with things I mostly don’t have any direct input and I’m finding it more and more difficult to stop letting things affect me and become proactive again. I’ve got several things planned this week that will hopefully put me in a petter position mentally even if a majority of the things won’t be sorted out.